It's Not About Me

Our Col­lege Win­ter Con­fer­ence

is this week­end, and I’m in charge. So for the last few days I’ve been bom­bard­ed with phone calls or urgent emails relat­ing to some minor cri­sis about the event. It reached a fever pitch yes­ter­day when I received a mes­sage about every ten min­utes (or so it seemed).

That’s not a big deal — it’s what you sign on for when you agree to direct a retreat or con­fer­ence.

How­ev­er, I also had to preach last night.

Being inter­rupt­ed every ten min­utes does not lend itself to robust ser­mon prepa­ra­tion. I’m very par­tic­u­lar about my ser­mon prepa­ra­tion rou­tine. I like to research my top­ic thor­ough­ly, write out what I intend to say word for word, and then rehearse it (at least once, prefer­ably twice). When speak­ing in the evening, I usu­al­ly man­u­script in the morn­ing and rehearse in the after­noon. That did­n’t hap­pen yes­ter­day.

The bot­tom line is that I walked into last night’s meet­ing less pre­pared for a ser­mon than I have been in years. I felt cer­tain that the mes­sage was going to be a flop.

While deliv­er­ing it, I felt as though I was fum­bling for words and ram­bling inco­her­ent­ly.

But at the end of the evening, one stu­dent prayed to receive Christ and anoth­er prayed to reded­i­cate her­self to Christ.

It was a hum­bling reminder that it’s not about me and my prepa­ra­tion; it’s about God using bro­ken ves­sels to achieve His will.

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One thought on “It's Not About Me”

  1. That’s a good reminder for all pas­tors! That’s cool to also about the two stu­dents. I’ll keep pray­ing for you, Lind­sey, Paula and XA!

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