The Kingdom of Heaven

Here’s that lengthy quote I read last night:

“The King­dom of Heav­en,” said the Lord Christ, “is among you.” But what, pre­cise­ly, is the King­dom of Heav­en? You can­not point to exist­ing spec­i­mens, say­ing, “Lo, here!” or “Lo, there!” You can only expe­ri­ence it. But what is it like, so that when we expe­ri­ence it we may rec­og­nize it? Well, it is a change, like being born again and relearn­ing every­thing from the start. It is secret, liv­ing power—like yeast. It is some­thing that grows, like seed. It is pre­cious like buried trea­sure, like a rich pearl, and you have to pay for it. It is a sharp cleav­age through the rich jum­ble of things which life presents: like fish and rub­bish in a draw-net, like wheat and tares; like wis­dom and fol­ly; and it car­ries with it a kind of men­ac­ing final­i­ty; it is new, yet in a sense it was always there—like turn­ing out a cup­board and find­ing there your own child­hood as well as your present self; it makes demands, it is like an invi­ta­tion to a roy­al banquet—gratifying, but not to be dis­re­gard­ed, and you have to live up to it; where it is equal, it seems unjust; where it is just it is clear­ly not equal—as with the sin­gle pound, the diverse tal­ents, the labor­ers in the vine­yard, you have what you bar­gained for; it no knows com­pro­mise between an uncal­cu­lat­ing mer­cy and a ter­ri­ble justice—like the unmer­ci­ful ser­vant, you get what you give; it is help­less in your hands like the King’s Son, but if you slay it, it will judge you; it was from the foun­da­tions of the world; it is to come; it is here and now; it is with­in you. It is record­ed that the mul­ti­tudes some­times failed to under­stand.

Dorothy Say­ers, The Poet­ry of Search